Who are you?

What are we watching today in society? What is the standard of living as a man today? I ask this question because each household is brought up with a different set of rules and guidelines that governs that environment. This section of script is going to expressively express the battles that many individuals deal with in the inner most sections, not only in their mind, but in their hearts. Our hearts and mind can be deceptive based on what I may desire, the things I may have went through, and what was even taught to me, maybe what I may have watched over a period of time that has change the perception of truth. Let’s dive in and see what I’ve been thinking about for the last couple of days…… when it comes to what is happening in our movies and tv shows when it comes to manhood!

Manhood can be described and interpreted differently by who is expressing it, but Google says:the state or period of being a man rather than a child. At some point you will grow up physically, but can still be childish or childlike mentally and in your actions. I’m concerned as to what we as men allow in our spaces to deter us from greatness. When I make this statement I allow myself to be vulnerable enough to say I have allowed circumstances and people to come in a place in my life that has disturbed my peace of mind. We sometimes say trust the process, but what if the process takes you down a road that very unfamiliar and kinda just scary? What if this road or process changes you from being the person you knew to someone you can’t even recognize?

These moments of truth are helping you to see what was buried in you for years. We look at the outward world for answers and try to find the truth in life when sometimes the only thing we’re doing is fighting an inward battle of acceptance and love. We dive into the lives of individuals whose normal was dysfunction, and then ask them to be normal. How do you look clearly out of lenses that are already cloudy or cracked? After speaking with several men and strategically putting these questions, emotions, thoughts and feelings to pen, I realized that hurting men sometime unintentionally hurt others. Not so much as-to physically putting hands on someone and being violent, but even to the point of not knowing how to lead someone to greater. Greater doesn’t always mean money, it can mean the way you think, your thought processing. If I had a poor mentality, I now see that I have the potential to have and be better. Reflecting while writing this chapter is showing me of the areas I could have done better in, but allowed situations to dictate my actions.

Being a Father doesn’t diminish the position of the wonderful mothers that have held it down for years and still continue too. Each role has a character or spirit about it that’s needed in the lives of children that helps nurture the essence of their soul. I consider myself an individual that hasn’t been perfect, and as I reflect I see some of areas that need careful attention. There are some emotions that have been unchecked and haven’t had the opportunity to be released in the right areas. You may ask what are some of those areas?

The reason I began to dig deeper into my own inner man was to review the patterns that seem to follow my life. As hard as you try to be good in some areas sometimes the results of your labor is the total opposite. You may pray and ask God to help you and in those quiet moments by yourself you get a glimpse of hope and find the strength to continue. But what happens to the men who can’t see hope and just give up. Grateful i’ve never wanted to give up on myself but I’ve had some very low moments that challenged me. And as I was going through some things I started having the desire to see what really goes in the mind of men. What are the outlets that helps deliver us from our own thoughts!